How it all began...

Our TTC (trying to conceive) journey started when we got married.

Did we want to have kids right away? You bet!
Did we know it was going to be this hard? Nope. Never crossed our minds.

I've always thought that getting pregnant would happen quickly for me. We'd get married, have our honeymoon and I'd get pregnant. But my ovaries have different plans. To make it more realistic, God had other plans.

Jay and I got married on May 2011. We had our honeymoon in the beautiful island of Malapascua. Then we waited... and waited... waited some more but I just wasn't getting pregnant. Now we were... uhmm... doing it quite regularly. But still no baby bump.

Then we decided to see an OB my dad recommended. She ordered for a blood test to determine our RH compatibility, but we didn't do it. Well, I did it towards the end of last year, but Jay hasn't yet. We were advised to watch what we eat as I've been gaining weight and that might pose a problem in trying to get pregnant.

We were supposed to have a follow-up check up but being the lazy person that I am, we didn't follow through. I was thinking that there was nothing wrong, that we probably just need more time, and the baby will come eventually. But the weeks turned into months. Months turned into years. And still no baby.

It wasn't until 2012 that I found out I actually have PCOS.

I found out because I thought I was pregnant. I was delayed for more than 3 months and I kept on testing but it would always come up negative. Then I decided to see another OB, not a fertility specialist, but someone who holds her clinic near our home. She ordered for a transvaginal ultrasound, but the sonologist didn't see anything. Well she did see that my ovaries were cystic, and my OB confirmed it.

I went back to my fertility specialist OB and she just prescribed clomiphene to help me ovulate. She discussed the effects of PCOS and still nothing. I ended 2012 with a heavy heart.

I remember sharing it in church and talking in between sobs in front of the congregation. And the only thing that kept ringing in my head was the thought that "I will be a breeding ground of God's miracle".

We're just in the first quarter of 2013, and we're still waiting for that miracle, and we believe in our hearts that it's just around the corner. :) I have a couple of friends and a few acquaintances who've been through this journey and now they're expecting their own babies! God is awesomely good!

In the mean time, it's still a waiting game for me. God has taught me a lot of things along the way especially in terms of handling disappointments and frustrations. :)

I still have a lot of stories to tell. Hopefully I'd get to write them all here before I see that "+" sign.

For now, let's catch that egg. ;)